Finally there

New York is amazing, of all the cities I've ever been to this is the one I love the most. I've always struggled with my identity, not knowing if I feel more American or European, but here it's as if it doesn't matter. I get the same feeling in Paris or London, but this is just so much bigger in very aspect.

And of course, seeing Avy again is wonderful, especially now that we can reinvent ourselves and do whatever we like. We're staying in her mother's apartment in Manhattan, it's like a dream come true. Most of the time we're alone, and when we're not we eat and drink together which is also nice. I feel like an adult for the first time since this summer.

Now it just remains to be seen if I have the courage to see Tom.