I think Avy is right, I'm slowly waking up. I'm becoming more and more of a woman and less of that innocent and cute little girl I've been all my life.
It's feels like electricity through my whole body when I sense that someone is watching me, when I imagine what they are thinking. It's not an entirely new sensation, but I've never before wanted to embrace it this much. Just letting Avy take these pictures of me on Valentine's was exciting, Salvatore has done it before but that was different somehow. He's after all a part of my family.
Tomorrow I'm going out on my first real date with Tom, I can't wait. I feel a little bad about leaving Avy behind, but she's a big girl who can take care of herself. I'm so happy to be here with her, she's opening my eyes to a world I hardly knew existed. Now it feels as if anything can happen, if I only let it. New York, I love you.