Someone told me that love is selfish and I think they were right. I'm letting all of this get to me because I can't handle the fact that Henry is touching someone else, kissing her, undressing her, throwing her Alexander McQueen dress on a floor on the other side of the ocean. I picture it when Tom wants to sleep with me and I have to tell him I'm tired, then turn around to not show him how ashamed I am of myself.

One of these days I have to tell him what it's all about or I'll lose him too. He's too good for this, I want to love him and only him, the way he deserves, and be happy. I want to build a wall to protect myself from the world, but I know there is no such thing as protection. No matter how close you get to someone, you're always alone in the end.


  1. deep and dark, a gloomy love but very beautiful all the same.

  2. You are alone throughout. You just realise it at the end.

  3. This is so beautiful, your story is really moving :'(

  4. "No matter how close you get to someone, you're always alone in the end.", yeah this is damn ture!
    inside you feel alone, and you can't change it keeping tom close to you. you have to figure out what you want, and do it without 2nd thoughts.

  5. Your posts have a dark but honest message in them ... love them !!!

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    A kiss.

  7. Oh the torture of being completely and utterly in love with someone who doesn't love you back/doesn't want you - story of my life right now. It's particularly terrible when it makes you unavailable to have a healthy, good relationship that's right in front of your fingertips.

    Matters of the heart simply defy all logic, in my experiences.

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  9. I hope you find out what your heart really wants!

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  10. -hugs- love is always awful. you just have to somehow reach beneath it and find the beauty too.

  11. Loved the post!!!

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  13. This was lovely. I missed you and Avy a lot. Would be back again but it could take time. Stay blessed! :) Love.