7/30/2012

Do you still fear me?

I know that my dad made a very brave decision when he left most of his family behind and moved to America. I also get the feeling that he probably had to, because that's how things work here. Kay said it best in The Godfather: it never ends. That's why it hurt me when I realized that even his friends resented him for leaving, they saw it as giving up.

And maybe he did, but if he hadn't, who knows what would have happened. I feel it sometimes when I meet people from the past, they look at me in a certain way, as if I'm him even though I was just a few years old when we left. I have so much to prove, and not only to myself, but the worst part is I can never expect them to understand.



32 comments:

  1. Ag, we all have something to prove and the most empowering moment is when you realise that you can do it. Whatever sacrifices your family or friends have made for you just means you get to stand on the shoulders of giants. And that's an awesome place to be, it's strength. Xo

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  2. Beautiful b&w photos..

    Your life does sound like a movie.

    Satu
    Indie by heart

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  8. Thanks! I'm from Poland so I write in my on language, this blog became some kind of journal for me. But I wish I live in California like you.
    Where did your father live before he moved to America? Did he fullfilled his "American dream"?:)

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  15. "Do you still fear me?" It's the question you silently ask all those who look at you as if you were your father.

    Italy makes you feel powerful, doesn't it? As the daughter of your father. And, especially, as a woman.

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  30. First of all, these pictures of you are too gorgeous for words. You're lovely. Leaving a place in the hope of something better isn't giving up. It takes courage to make such a huge change.

    May the force be with you.
    Emily

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